Feeling bi-polar? That's because you are loving others (only part of you is on upper cross), but have forgotten yourself (fragments caught in the void, abyss or apathy). That does not follow the script, "Love your neighbor AS yourself". Therefore, you are toggling from cross to cross in manic and depressive states.
Do you know how to climb the ladder of consciousness and thread the eye of salvation by accepting every experience as part of your perfect design?
You must find all of the fragmented pieces of you locked up in states of judgment, shame and guilt in the past. You must descend into hell to resurrect denied or avoided past experiences and transfigure them (spin doctor them=alchemy) in order to ascend into heaven.